Accelerated Development

So they say Day 1 – Day 30 are the physical changes. In this time, one would obviously encounter The Runs [a sign of dehydration / detoxing, perhaps?], super fast weight loss, stiffness [hello joints-I’ve-never-known-exist-before!] and super muscle development.

Emotional development cometh Day 31-60. That’s the emotional breakdown, the crying, the weeping, the feeling of helplessness, etc etc.

Day 61-90 hark the beginning of “Hello! It’s a new me!”.

In under 30 days, I have encountered the physical changes within the first 15 days, and the emotional stuff is hitting me, NOW. Like, HARD. In the FACE. With a sledgehammer.

I feel worthless, helpless and like a total fuck-up.

But hey, if you feel like shit and things are going terrible, it means that something good is just round the corner, right?

Or maybe I’m just being stupid.



Posted on May 25, 2009, in Bikram Yoga, Malaysiana, Yuck. Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.

  1. don’t worry, i feel like that everyday, that’s why i go to yoga.

    • But you’re NONE of those! 😦

      They say “trust the process”, but at this rate I want to curl up in bed and cry my eyes out. I guess the only option at this point is to keep on truckin’ !

  2. oh how i wish that was true!

    i think it’s good to feel worthless and helpless. no ego. be a humble servant of the lord and project his divinity. or something like that. i don’t know. take more naps!

    in the studio is when i feel my best.

    keep on truckin’—that’s one of my favorite r. crumb pieces!

    • Naps sound good! But the problem with naps is that I feel so goddamn groggy and cranky after one that I won’t want to go to class!

      And hey, suffer for 30 seconds and get 30 years of benefit, right? 🙂


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